Facing Realities

Being thirtysomething is mostly interesting, some times difficult, and always a wild ride. I gave up posting regularly because living life got in the way. I have realized I am mostly a random blogger and I am fine with that reality. I would rather live life than write about it...some days. Blogging does allow me to sit back and think about the realities of my life though. For instance, the reality that my daughter does not need me in the same way that she did when she was younger is hitting me hard lately. Another reality is that try as I might to turn a job into something great, sometimes a job is just a job. Reality is always there, but sometimes we choose to ignore reality when we get scared. The reality that I am aging scares me. The reality that I am losing my dad much more quickly than I am prepared for is a really sad and sucky (yes, that is a word) fact. It is probably this reality that makes me bury my head in the sand like an ostrich. Facing realities of loss are very difficult and require an iron stomach. I always thought I was such a strong person, but lately it just seems like someone keeps punching me in the stomach just when I catch my breath. I think the thing that makes me the most upset about this is that I somehow get the feeling that this is just part of getting older. I think the aging process is difficult, but the loss factor is WAY hard. Nothing prepares you. I guess the best you can hope for is the newly found wrinkles and signs of aging represent a life well lived.

The 2010 Thirtysomething

It is my first official post of the new year...only 20 days late. What a way to start. Work has been insanely busy and I have been trying to up the workouts to achieve some sort of body transformation before my brother's wedding this summer. With all of that, the past 20 days has inspired me to reassess my goals for this year. Of course, this would assume that I do not assess my goals throughout the year, but New Years seems like a good time to prioritize my ever growing list. So, in no particular order:
1. Be more consistent. I know this is super broad and somewhat nebulous, but I am a very random person and in order to achieve more of my goals, I need to set this as one of them. For example, my diet is pretty "clean" but I have been stuck at the same weight for a while now. One issue I have is that I continue to believe that "just one cookie" won't hurt....which is true, but it won't get me to my goal either.
2. Live in the moment more often. I am by nature a "type A" personality...which means I am always trying to figure out what is next, how it will get done, etc....I have a very hard time relaxing and truly appreciating this great life of mine. Living in the moment for me means consciously choosing to be present and enjoy things more.
3. Have "do-it" vs. diet attitude and thought process.
4. Be more patient and put myself in other's shoes...especially my teenage daughter.
5. Be brave...I don't know exactly what this means yet, but I do know that alot of changes are going to occur this year and I need to be brave and face them instead of complaining or ignoring them.
6. Do 3 things that will get me closer to being my own business owner.

Ok, that is enough for one year. If I can manage all of that, I will be an extremely balanced....and busy thirtysomething.