"Ms. DTV"

You can't grow up in the 80's without having seen the movie "Girls Just Want to Have Fun." I always related to Sarah Jessica Parker's character in the movie. I think every teenager goes through a stage of figuring out who and what you are in life. After a recent discussion about the movie with a fellow thirtysomething, I realized that my new hero in the movie is Ricky (Helen Hunt). She is so creative, original, and uniquely herself the entire movie. Plus, in the final scene, she rides onto the set in a chariot as Ms. DTV...how awesome is that? I used to just think she was weird (the character). Funny how the phases in one's life bring us to re-evaluate "weirdness" and our views on life. As a thirtysomething, I sorta feel like I am going through some sort of early mid-life crisis sometimes. It isn't the type of crisis that causes me to buy a fancy new sports car or anything extreme like that, but I definitely re-evaluate me. What do I want to be when I grow up? Who do I want to be when I grow up? What is important for me to accomplish in my thirties? What isn't important for me to accomplish in my thirties? One thought/feeling seems to permeate all of the questions....being original and completely myself (whatever that is) is the most important thing to me. For most of my twentysomething life, I tried to live up to all sorts of expectations from my family, my friends, my co-workers, my significant other, my child...etc. What I have come to realize is that I set my own expectations for myself. I will be wonderful if I stick to what I know best..myself. While I don't have it all figured out, I do know that I want more Ricky moments in my life....by embracing myself (the good, the bad, and the ugly) without apologies. A quote that I just love by Ralph Waldo Emerson comes to mind, "Insist upon yourself. Be original." So, this thirtysomething is going to continue to explore, create, and develop myself in hopes of having more Ms. DTV moments.